If you need a place to live

We are looking for renters again, or buyers. Our renters are ditching out on their lease early and so i thought i had till February to worry about this but i have to now instead. groan. I really wish that Cory would deal with this and it didn't fall to me because i dont want to be the grown up right now.. but alas i am.

so if your brother 's sister in laws mother's uncle's cousin needs a place send them my way! There is a blog of my house with lots of pictures and information, and we lowered the price to $1095. http://rentinutah.blogspot.com/

A years worth of Photos of my baby boy!

I cant believe its been a whole year! He was not a planned baby but by the time he got here we were overjoyed to have him join our family and cant imagine it any other way. He is such a sweet little boy and I love being his mom! He is a walking pro now and loves to run all around outside. He loves to throw all his food on the floor and tell me "uh oh". His new favorite things to eat are brie cheese and otter pops. He loves to sing songs and read stories and cuddle. He enjoys nursing still and when he is done he pops back up gives me a big smile and says "hi". He has four teeth now, but still barely any hair. He is so small compared to my other boys that were 20 lbs by 5 months. He is still only 19 pounds and that's with clothes and diaper on! Its weird having such a little baby and most of the clothes he cant fit because Theo stretched them out so much! Its amazing how much I love this baby boy, he just makes me so happy. Happy birthday Arthur!

I will post pictures later of his first birthday cake adventure but for now if you are bored and want a long photo trip down memory lane here are a bunch that are somewhat in order ( i dont have much time to organize this with all three kids in the background!)

going home from hospital three days old

a few seconds old cuddling with Mommy.

Turn off the lights!!

Theo was enamored. He loves having a baby brother, even though he is a bit rough with him

First few days... mom this world is too bright!

the passed out look right after a nursing session. I love it! He still nurses and falls asleep looking so cute! In fact as i type this he is in my arms asleep from nursing.

conked out. wish i slept this soundly!

waz up? stylin in the shades at 3 weeks old.

Lovin the moby wrap! He lived in this almost 12 hours a day the first three months, he always wanted to be with mommy!

snuggling Papi

first smile i got on camera. He really was such a happy baby and we couldnt get enough gummy smiles from him!

Blessing day at three months old

poor kid has been sat on many times by Theo.

His turtle look

Theos art work, the first of many times i am afraid!

He gets this surprised look a lot. this was about 5 months old

6 months

8 months old

Doing some Yoga

Easter Sunday 9 months old

Eating the pink jellow salad and LOVING it!

yes i am one of those moms that let their kids practically roll in the food.. thats what baths are for right? Plus then you can have dinner and arts and crafts at the same time, bonus!

This baby always has a bump on his head!

10 months old always opening the cupboards and so proud that he can!

Driving the moving truck to Texas.

Big huge smiles are his trademark

he would climb up onto this and thought it was the neatest trick! Then he would try and stand on the tray... we gave it away to the neighbors after that! I didnt need any more ER trips!

11 months old. I could watch this boy sleep all day! He is so adorable and I want to scope him up and smother him with kisses!

The Art of friendship

Making friends has never been my strong point. I know many of you are thinking, what? because I am so talkative and loud and seem to be outgoing and confident. But really i am not. I am just loud :) I was the token loner kid all through my school years until College where I finally made some wonderful friends, but those same wonderful friends told me later that when they first met me they thought i was a bit.. um crazy and loud! I know. Really I do. I cant seem to help it, I have tried for 29 years now. I am crazy and loud but fun too! Cory always tells me that I am too overwhelming at first. I am really a great friend if you get to know me, but I cant seem to figure out all the rules of making friends and feel like I am about 15 years too late. I guess everyone else figured this out in junior high and high school while i was reading a book in a corner somewhere. I have found that making a girl friend is much harder than dating was. It seems more complicated and to be honest I was much more comfortable in a room full of men then I am now in relief society with all the women! Women are more complicated for me to read I find and they also will pretend to like you when really they cant stand to be near you. Which makes it really hard to know if someone wants to actually be your friend or if they are just being nice.

So now as a 29 year old stay at home mom in a new state away from all family and friends I find I am lonely and I want a friend or two. And not just the ones you say hi to at church because anyone that knows me knows that I talk to everyone at church. I want the kind of friend that you can call on a Tuesday afternoon and say hey my kids are driving me nuts today want to have a girls night out and make our husbands deal with bedtimes? But how do you get there? Its like dating all over again! Its awkward, you don't know what to say, you worry you are stepping over boundaries... You dont want to annoy them, but you want them to know you like them ( jeez do i sound like i am in the 7th grade?) I am always worried if I ask someone to hang out with me they are going to feel obligated to even if they don't have any desire to do so. And I am like a scared little 16 year old boy that doesn't want to get turned down so i never ask in the first place! Like my dear sister Thora once joked wouldn't it be great if you could just make an ad and people could respond like those dating sites but for friends

29 year old mom to 3 energetic boys who is a night person and loves to workout at the gym even though she is eternally going to be a size 10-12. seeking a friend who likes board games, talking, going to dinner without the kids, scrapbooking, going shopping so we can people watch ( and let me tell you there is some prime people watching at the midland mall!), and if you have kids that would entertain any of my kids bonus!

So what I am wondering is what do you all do in new social circles? Does anyone else have a fear of reaching out? I would love to hear what you do.