Taylor

Happy Two Year Angelversary

to my sweet little

Taylor Joseph!!


Today, two years ago i was in a hospital. It was Thanksgiving day, I was not feeling particularly thankful though. In fact even though I gave birth to a beautiful little boy I didn't feel blessed. I felt cheated, I felt angry, and my heart broke looking into his still baby face and wishing and praying he would suddenly open those eyes. I never did get to gaze into his eyes. I did however hold him, bath him, rock him, and love him. And those are the most cherished memories I have.

Today I ponder on what he would be doing at age two. How my life would be different with him here. I think about if I would have Theodore, and I don't think I would. I feel like Theo just needed to come to our home, and Taylor just was needed back in heaven. I know I will see him again someday. I can hardly wait. I will look into his eyes, hold him close, and tell him how much I have missed him all these years. It will be a joyous reunion.

We decorated his grave for Christmas again like last year. Porter was really excited about the tree, wants one for our house!
My Three Boys. Theo was really attached to this balloon, he took it home and we just left the Santa one on Taylor's grave. Taylor is a good big brother and didn't mind sharing. :)
enough pictures mom, I gotta go check out these balloons!
Ooooohhhhhh pretty!
Just a really cute picture of Theo, I love the hat on him!

The balloons floating up to Taylor with all our Love. Click on the picture to see it bigger.

A Happy Family

my little chef

Porter loves to help me cook. Here he is scrambling some eggs, his most favorite food ever!

Driving in circles

So last month for Halloween I had this table cloth on the table. Porter was really excited when i put it up and told me it was a road! I told him that was spider webs, at which point he turned to me and exaggerated " no mom, this is a road!" Of course he said it like i was some silly person to not know this already. I decided to not argue the point any further and so until i packed this table cloth back up this is what porter did every day. We were not allowed to move any of the cars which was a bit of a problem at meal times. I was glad to finally have my table back when we hit November! for some reason he only obsessed with putting cars on there while the "road" was on it.

He would stand and evaluate the situation, then move all the cars one by one around. I think he was trying to figure out how to not have a gap between the cars, but he didn't have enough to do that. So for hours he just sat there moving the cars forward. I swear that kid has more patience that i ever will!

Theodore growing up!

Theo is getting so big! He cut his first tooth a week ago, finally! he just has the one and its on the bottom. I am lucky that he has not tried to bite me yet while nursing. I think he knows that will be the end of that relationship if he tries! He is such a joy in my life, and i love his smiles. He is getting closer to walking every day and cruises along the couch, or you if you sit on the floor! What? No mom I didn't make that mess with the paper towel!
Okay maybe I did make it, but i did a good job huh?

But mom I am so cute, don't be mad at me! Porter made me do it!
I love this face! He is just so cute I wanna kiss him all day!
Look how much hair he has! I think he will just have longer hair, i love it and don't want to cut it! plus I don't think he would stay very still!
i was outside taking pictures of a spider web and turned around to find that Theo was going up the stairs! This was the first time he went up the stairs and this was at 9 1/2 months. He is a pro now, really fast. Which is good because he needed to burn some calories!! he lost some weight on his waist so he can finally wear some of the pants that his brother and cousins wore at this age! He was living in sweats for a while, he couldn't squeeze into the jeans!

mom where is my dinner?? I'm so big I can find all the toys!


he was pushing this chair around the living room, and so proud of himself! These last couple pictures were taken today, such a big boy huh?

Halloween

This year porter was really into the holiday. He was so excited to go trick or treating. I was sceptical that he wouldn't want to once we got out there, but he did! he insisted that I needed a costume like him and Theo so i dressed up as a last minute kitty cat. Porter thought it was great, Theo was a little worried by the make up. Porter even said trick or treat and thank you at each house. Funny thing was people would hold out their bowl full of snickers and Hershey bars and bags of skittles and porter would pick out one little tootsie roll! Apparently they are his favorite. After a little while he told me he had enough candy and he wanted to go home. I don't remember ever thinking I had enough candy when I was a kid!
Theo sound asleep with a smarties in each hand! He fell asleep 10 minutes in but porter didn't want to go home yet.
Porter took this picture of me and Theo before i got a neighbor to help. He actually took about 10 pictures but this was the only one that you could see our faces in!

We had two Halloween costumes for Theo, the monkey was his cousin Oliver's from last year and the Tiger was Porter's costume from when he was one. Theo looked so cute in both of them so he wore one to the church Halloween party and one on Halloween for trick or treating.
My little Monkey.

In the stroller getting ready to go Trick or Treating.
Mom, do I have to wear this??
Tiger standing up by the couch.

Tiger and Mr dragon.
Two cute happy boys!


Look at my tail mommy!

our own little dragon. That is the jack-o lantern that porter helped me make. He picked what he would look like for the face. He told me circle eyes, a triangle nose, and a smiley face.