Happy Two Year Angelversary
to my sweet little
Taylor Joseph!!
Today, two years ago i was in a hospital. It was Thanksgiving day, I was not feeling particularly thankful though. In fact even though I gave birth to a beautiful little boy I didn't feel blessed. I felt cheated, I felt angry, and my heart broke looking into his still baby face and wishing and praying he would suddenly open those eyes. I never did get to gaze into his eyes. I did however hold him, bath him, rock him, and love him. And those are the most cherished memories I have.
Today, two years ago i was in a hospital. It was Thanksgiving day, I was not feeling particularly thankful though. In fact even though I gave birth to a beautiful little boy I didn't feel blessed. I felt cheated, I felt angry, and my heart broke looking into his still baby face and wishing and praying he would suddenly open those eyes. I never did get to gaze into his eyes. I did however hold him, bath him, rock him, and love him. And those are the most cherished memories I have.
Today I ponder on what he would be doing at age two. How my life would be different with him here. I think about if I would have Theodore, and I don't think I would. I feel like Theo just needed to come to our home, and Taylor just was needed back in heaven. I know I will see him again someday. I can hardly wait. I will look into his eyes, hold him close, and tell him how much I have missed him all these years. It will be a joyous reunion.
We decorated his grave for Christmas again like last year. Porter was really excited about the tree, wants one for our house!
My Three Boys. Theo was really attached to this balloon, he took it home and we just left the Santa one on Taylor's grave. Taylor is a good big brother and didn't mind sharing. :)
enough pictures mom, I gotta go check out these balloons!
Ooooohhhhhh pretty!
Just a really cute picture of Theo, I love the hat on him!
The balloons floating up to Taylor with all our Love. Click on the picture to see it bigger.
A Happy Family
11 comments:
I love that you continue this birthday celebration. Your 3 little boys are all so lucky to have you as their mommy.
I wish I could've been there to give you a huge hug in person. Know that I am thinking of you and sending lots of love to you.
What a beautiful blog :) Lucky boys to have such a great Mommy!
Beautiful. Our hearts were with you and our thoughts on Taylor. Thanks for sharing your Angelversary with us.
Camilla, I'm thinking and sending big hugs your way...love you lots.
Beautiful pictures Camilla. I also love the hat on Theo :) Lots of love sent to your way from my family.
HUGS
Clare
I wish I could have been there with you; I thought of you and Taylor. I think that Theo just had a burning need to be here too, and Taylor was needed in heaven, like you said. You are quite the boy maker, though, and they're all so cute.
What a precious way to commemorate a beautiful little boy. Happy angelversary, sweet Taylor. Camilla, your beaming smile in the last photo is just beautiful!
Camilla - what a beautiful blog. My thoughts are with you as you remember Taylor. I love your pictures of your boys. (((BIG HUGS)))
Camilla,
I am continually amazed at the wonderful mother you are. It is so precious to share these memories with you children...what a wonderful oppertunity to teach them the plan of salvation. You look beautiful.
Camilla - The balloon release was just beautiful.
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