Due date

Today is my due date. I am 40 weeks pregnant, and no sign of baby! I thought for sure i would have had him by now. I guess its so nice and cozy in there he just wants to stay put! I cant really blame him, as he hears his brothers screaming all day long and also feels them when they jump on me and smash him. He probably is terrified of coming into this home! I on the other hand think he needs to, because I am done being pregnant! I even had a talk with him telling him that he better come . I have a feeling he is not going to be a model son, as he obviously ignored me! My feet are all swollen so much that the pressure from walking on them is painful sometimes. I cant sleep at night, my back is always sore, and the sensation of having a 9 pound bowling ball sitting on my bladder and pelvis has definitely gotten old!


I find that few things are enjoyable when you are this pregnant. Eating is one of the few. Also when you are this miserable in your pregnancy you find that you can justify anything if it makes you happy even for a moment. So my simple pleasures include eating nutella

from the jar, by the spoonful (Mmmmmm chocolaty hazelnut gooeyness, if you don't know what this is you need to buy a jar!)

I also have found that laffy taffy and twizzlers are quite satisfying. Yesterday I ate an entire half of a watermelon. It was so juicy and cold and Delicious i just couldn't help myself! Today i plan on going and getting a jamba juice.. sounds perfect. Oh and maybe some cheese fries, because they are so yummy and who doesn't love a plate load of carbs cooked in fat, topped in fat, and then dipped in fry sauce ( mayonnaise mixed with ketchup.. its a Utah thing) which is also fat. Mmmmmm Mmmmmmm.

Now just so you don't think i just sit around eating all day waiting for this baby to come out let me tell you i have tried everything else. I even mopped my floor last night and got down on all fours and scrubbed with a bristle brush! I have done all sorts of yoga positions and crawling on all fours to help him get in a good position to descend so his head could put some pressure on my cervix and make it dilate. I bounced on my exercise ball and did figure eights on it with my hips. I went on a walk with the boys... in the 100 degree weather.. couldn't sweat the kid out. I weeded my flower garden on all fours for a good while. All these things gave me some contractions, but not enough to put me into labor obviously! Oh and for those that are going to ask... yes we tried sex. Nothing happened! Soooooo I give up. Today I am going to go to the movies with Cory and i think i will lounge the rest of the day. Maybe I will get around to posting a big ol belly shot for you all to oogle. Oh ya.. my other sad sad moment. Here i am at the very end of my FOURTH pregnancy and NOW I got a nice patch of stretch marks??!! Just reminded me that this baby is getting huge in there. I am starting to worry he will be bigger than Theo, and let me tell you his fat head was hard enough to push out! I am a bit worried.

Now.. on to the question i know many of you have. Why in the world have i not been induced, and when am I going to be? Well I have had the option to get induced for two weeks now. I have declined because I want my body to go into labor on its own. I don't plan on being induced with artificial means ( pitocin, cervadil, etc) until i am 42 weeks. So August 11th. Just so you know.. so when i am still pregnant next week you wont wonder why. (Although i think the baby should come on Friday. because i think it would be cool to have a birthday that is 8.1.8 but if not then the following Friday so 8.8.8 not that they care if they are born on a cool day numerically!) Until then I am going to wait. I know you all think I am nuts but hear me out first, as it is my body and my baby's birth i have to go through! The first reason being that if my body and baby are ready then he will come. Obviously one or the other is not ready hence why i am still a big ol whale. Inductions before baby is ready can lead to problems, complications, longer labors ( like i need any longer ones than i have!), and increased chance of c-section which i am terrified of. The second being that I HATE pitocin. Like I really hate it. When you are induced they tether you to the pitocin and you cant go anywhere without it. It makes your contractions fast and furious from the get go, so when you are only dilated to a four you feel like you are dilated to an 8. For those that know, my labors are really long and I actually stall at an 8 for hours so spending all day long feeling like that is not fun to me. I have had three births, all three over 24 hrs. I don't labor fast, I just don't. My hips and pelvis are narrow and my baby's are big and it just takes a long time. I am okay with this, as I don't want a c-section and would rather labor long than have one because baby is taking a while to descend. The problem with me and pitocin is that I don't like epidurals either and to have a whole day with pitocin and no epidural is a nightmare. I know this because I did it with Theo!

Now i know the next thing you want to know is why i don't want an epidural. Well I just don't like feeling numb for starters! Second, epidurals cause your blood pressure to drop. I already have low blood pressure so when it drops i feel like passing out and then they make me lay down and give me oxygen and ice packs on my neck and forehead. Also I need to move around to get into positions to help my baby descend and its hard to do that when you are numb from the waist down. I want to be in a full squat to deliver this baby, as it makes your pelvis 30% bigger.

Sooo this is long and rambly but to sum it up I am still pregnant. And don't worry i will post when i am actually in labor for real. ( which i am starting to wonder if i will even know since i have so much false labor!)